HI MY NAME IS CHARLOTTE

2012-01-14T02:49:00.000-08:00

GO HERE

http://xialotte.blogspot.com/

Luv ya ^v^

2011-10-29T07:13:00.000-07:00

I will be perfect in every way.
Watch me soar.

I was born with no knowledge.
But I was blessed to receive education and I got the best.

I was born being chubby.
But I had determination to make myself look better and now I am.

I was born alone.
But I stuck to my principles of integrity and I found my true love.

I was born in a broken and poor family.
But it is because of this and because of them, I will fight for a better life.

I was born with nothing.
But everything I have today, I earned it with my own hard work and perseverance.

Why should I not be confident of myself?
Impossible is nothing and nothing is impossible.

A poor, unruly, lowly me made it to the top uni in sg competing with the best.

I should never be ashamed of my "credentials".
INSTEAD, I SHOULD BE PROUD THAT WITH SUCH CREDENTIALS, I'M STILL STANDING BESIDE THE ELITES.

May the poor and defiant rise up and believe, what you are now is changing every single second, nothing is nothing and nothing is everything, we've all got something.

We may not have luck
We may not have money
We may not have intelligence
But we all surely have the ability to be hardworking.

It is a foolproof formulae.
Trust me, use it.

2011-10-22T06:20:00.000-07:00

Eat like pig.
These few days like sieh hungry ghost.
Dowan to put on weight ): I'm still 2 more kgs to 43!!!

My right brow lost, draw halfway pen no ink. HAHA.

Sem One gna be over soon in about 4 weeks time. Mad fast.
I still don't like school. Find the people there really damn !@#$%@.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WORD TO USE TO DESCRIBE.

They're like very enthu about studying?
Gan pua siao on, to the freaking maximum!

Cannot take it in this kind of environment ):
Why cannot just chillax for one second? Like don't talk/think about school work and talk to me about something else like r&b, food or holidays?

Sticking out like a sore thumb.
English also cannot make it everyday tio shoot, jitao toh until flat flat.

People want to know what's uni like. I will tell you today.
When you go to nus, its like you go into another realm.
A world of scholars and academicians.

The rule is simple.
Read, speak and eat textbooks.
Buy the textbook, burn it, boil it, swallow it.
Then regurgitate in the best way you can and tadaa you win!

For a moment, the whole atmosphere is so atas.
I feel polite and even act politely.

People actually hold doors for you in nus.
Everyone is HAPPY and nobody BITCHES. That is the fucking problem. It's NOT normal.

All the lianhueybengseng totally GONE almost like they've vanished from the face of the earth, I never heard anyone scolding hokkien vulgarities only fuck here, fuck there, fuck this, fuck that.

Everyone is really smart to death.
They have a encyclopedia mind, a brain of google.
THEY KNOW EVERYTHING. I DON'T EVEN READ NEWSPAPERS.

I didn't even know what the hell was H&M, I thought it was a music store. ><

Can you see my head banging wall.

It's not easy for someone like me, suaku plus xiangbalao, to try and fit into this kind of sick environment. No friends. No nothing. I just can't wait to be with my warrior next year, even though she's really atas she doesn't treats me in a different way. :)

I JUST CAN'T ADAPT.

2011-10-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

I hate falling sick
Stop the damn headache
Once start crying cannot stop its like a bad flu

I really love my bf so much and I can't lose him dowan to lose him cannot live w/o him even though how fuck he is how fuck my life is I need this person so much so so damn much

I keep asking what should I do what should I do I know what I should do but I can't do it cos i can't kill two bird with one stone I can't stop hurting by stabbing my heart can I

All I want to is to have him by my side and nothing else matters

DO U ALL UNDERSTAND THIS FEELING? ):

2011-10-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

Inspire

This was how I looked like last year, on my 19th birthday, GLOWING.

This is how I look like today, about 1 month after my 20th birthday, DYING.

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST EVERY SINGLE DAY.

How?

Be afraid but have courage therefore, be brave.
You think everytime I go into the doctor's room, get those injections, do the blood tests and the scans, I'm really so fearless as I look? Hell no! I'm fucking scared but I keep telling myself its going to be over it will be okay. You think words of consolation helps? I'm going to lie on the operating table ALONE ok, no one will hold my hand say charlotte we here with u! So I btr not be a whiney loser.

Hold on to the things which matter to you, until the very end.
Have perserverance, giving up is never your option towards these things, be it love, a goal, a dream. You make it happen, you realize it, you live it. You give up on it, that's the end, it will be like it never existed.

Do not regret.
Regrets are painful. Believe in yourself and don't look back, we don't have time for that. What's done cannot be undone, so learn to live with the choices you've made.

Live cleverly.
Be efficient, save time, save mental resources for things worth it. Prioritize.

Keep trying.
Don't worry about the mistakes you've made, just try and do your best, try hard just hard enough to still be living cleverly. Nothing can stop you unless you stop yourself.

I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL GET MY DEGREE.
I will study hard enough to get through NUS.

I am still strong, I have always been strong.
People who think I've become weak, you are wrong.
It's just that I have choosen to be strong in some other way which doesn't seem impt to you but its crucial for me.

I don't need to explain my doings.
I trust myself to have the right judgement to do the right things.

I'm proud of my grades in school.
It's my motivation, I won't let anyone who once placed hopes on me, once looked up to me, once relied on me down. I may slip once or twice but I'll keep going.

YOU ALL BTR BUCK YOUR ASSES UP, ENOUGH WITH COMPLAINS, SELF PITY & WASTING TIME, FREAKIN START LIVING YOUR LIFE NOW!

2011-09-22T22:36:00.000-07:00

i ♥ Mac book air

whooooohooooo~~
So cute n light omg. It's weight is the sex man!
Thanks mum (:

Have tests coming!
Bo bi the mcqs can handle.
Damn crazy havent even figure out all the stuff exam alrd ><

No point in worrying or forcing myself when I can hardly concentrate. Juz gna try my best study whatever I can and leave the rest to fate.

Pass and I will be very very thankful alrd!
All other things I won't worry.

Don't want to be strong also cannot.
Only I can help myself. Everyday sad also have to live gam wan everyday happy right.

Accounting n OM be nice to me.
I will love u long time!

Kkkkkkk gna chiong alrd. Altho abit late. HAHA. Ciaos~

2011-09-20T06:46:00.000-07:00

Locally Aggressive-Malignant

Living everyday with a living volcano inside.
A blood test consisting of more than 20 tests which cost $399 and taking 7 tubes of blood at one go.

All the scans, xrays, injections, blood tests.
More than 6 holes punctured in major vein site.
A horrible painful suffering dye injection and more to come.

Too many things not done yet.
Not now man, not now.

2011-09-15T05:12:00.000-07:00

AM I CUTE? ^^

I love my apple head! HAHA.
Finafuckingly in 8 years no more long hair, for real!

一直不离不弃
用自己的方法爱我
是我不明白所以生气讨厌

现在我看白了
真的很爱你

2011-09-08T05:46:00.000-07:00

To a certain extent, I hate school

I like being alone bcos there isn't really anyone who is genuine about making friends. The only one is like flying to aussie alrd!!! Fml.

It's just like people in biz ad just go to class to compete, impress the profs, bombard their classmates, suck knowledge and once all is done they go home and mug to death.

FUCK THIS SHIT!

And I really cannot stand people who are so full of themselves.

Yes, I look like I can't even talk.
I look like I'm gna be a damn bad speaker.
I ALWAYS look like I'm slacking around being a bummer.

When all people do is grab tasks w/o allocating formally, just jumping into the sinking ship and start sailing madly away fighting to be captain may I ask WHAT CAN YOU DO? You can't jump cos you can't survive alone. So just gong gong dai dai shuddup and sail to your death lor!

You just have no say.
Nobody ever listens. Everyone is going their own way. Life is fucked.

I'm always tired.
Always sleepy and always sleeping.
BUT HOW CAN I FUCKING HELP IT?!

You think I like to look like some lazy bastard who doesn't even bother to act awake in class?!

People don't know shit and they look at you through tainted glasses.
Once I get that shit I'm gna stop going to school and you guys can figure!

Sg education system, YOU ARE TRASH.

2011-09-03T07:38:00.000-07:00

Prolly the slackest team in NUS

From left Gus, Boon, Mini me, Roderick, Abi & Shin!!!

We all wna punch MNO for making us burn Sat!
We're still happy though :D

What would I be without them! ^^

2011-08-31T07:10:00.001-07:00

Tired

I pity myself.
Feeling so weak everyday.
Really gna punch the doctors if they tell me its nothing after doing all these tests.

2011-08-31T02:25:00.001-07:00

How are u?
I miss u.

There's something wrong with my shoulder.
When I went to hosp tdy, it reminded me of your back problem.

I wonder how u look like now?
Fatter I guess?

You'll be surprised if you see me one day.
I'm not so fat and my boobs are small. HAHA.

Maybe only you know how much support I need.
Only you knw how weak I really am.

The person who I can cry every single thing to and who will never tell me that he hates my crying, the person who will stand up for me in every situations and protect me rather than scolding me xiasuey when I only stand up for myself, the person who will keep saying no, be strong when I tell him silly things like I wna die, only that one person.

2011-08-30T07:02:00.001-07:00

YOU BLOODY BURDEN

I'm so convinced that I'm gna die from being suppressed.
I am also motherfucking sure I need to leave and never return.

Bloody piece of shit

2011-08-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

Anorexic & Bulimic

I think I'm both!!! si liao lo...

2011-08-22T04:55:00.000-07:00

Maintain before I go BONKERS

I cannot go home everyday holding back my fucking tears and telling myself how fucked is my life bcos of one stupid motherfucking self centered son of a bitch! I cannot be wasting time doing stupid things like watch a movie or wait for someone to finish their fucking cigarette! And if you are going home to fuck your girlfriend after screwing my day, WELL FUCK U JOLLY MUCH!

Nobody fucks around with my life,
ESPECIALLY MY SCHOOLWORK.

So listen up and listen hard, I am sick of this shit and as it seems, I've already passed my birthday! So fuck those curses and whatever else curses is coming my way! SCREW U ALL.

I'm good at protecting things be it people stuff whatever, even myself, my friends. I stop protecting bcos everyone seemed like they didn't need protection anymore! AND I DIDN'T EVEN PROTECT MY OWN ASS. So I think now I found sth worth fighting for again and I will!

To all that big fat shit coming my way and that cursed bastard, why don't you guys hug each other and GO BURN IN HELL!

Nobody step on my toes or ur lucky ass will be a sub cos I fucking need a punching bag right now!

2011-08-19T22:37:00.000-07:00

My first 20th Birthday cake & wish :]

My superly beautiful BR ice cream cake!!!
Heart melt when I saw it, never expected anyone to buy ice cream cake for me~~

Thank you Geok, Yimin & Ser!!!
I really appreciate this especially when we're not exactly super close friends. This celebration meant a lot to me.

All I can say is, 我真的很感动.
I love u girls (:

Blog about it properly when I get the piccas ^^

2011-08-18T18:59:00.000-07:00

No birdy is going to spoil my day. Absolutely no one.

2011-08-18T08:51:00.001-07:00

WHAT A FUCKING STUPID TIME TO GET MY PERIOD!

Like 3 days before my birthday?!
Fuck that dumb uterus!

Rough start but I will get there

2011-08-16T04:35:00.000-07:00

Scared
Tired
Sleepy
Headache
Cold
Fever
Upset

Law and that mad professor

I'm so scared at school.
I don't dare to ask questions.
I don't even dare to answer questions.

IT IS THAT FUCKED.

Feels like I am invisible.
Nobody cares to make friends.
Well cos, THEY ALREADY MADE FRIENDS.

How sad is that.
I'm self pitying again.

Low morale.
No confidence.
Feeling out of place.
Fish out of water, need to find home.

Need to adapt faster.
Need to be stronger.

Sometimes I just want to crash, coma or like die away for sometime and restart. But that's a cowardly mentality cos I'm just running away from my problems.

I'm going to face my problems.
Talk to people and stop assuming that the whole world doesn't understand. How can they understand if I don't even tell them I have an issue?

Introvert is not me.
I'm like a useless crab hiding in my shell all day nowadays. I'M NOT A CRAB!!!

Uni is so foreign.
We have to rely on maps and almost compasses all day long.

But I'll be okay.
I'm very good at comforting myself. I'm very good at being strong for myself. Even btr at being strong for others.

I'm teaching tution. LOL.
Mad char bcome tution teacher. Wtf right.
I love Gennie. She is so cute and attentive. (:

I knw its random why my piccas just pop out of nowhere. HAHA.

Fighting~~~!!!

Sorry for the photo spam, it was done on purpose :D
Today August Sixteen, 5 MORE DAYS~~

I wan to eat buttday cakes and make a wish!!!
Can I be princess for the day? ^^

Go buy new bras and a mini pompom dress tmr. HAHAHA. Ciaos bitches~~ Going to study legal now, don't kaciao or I SUE U!! Teeheee toodles~ Love ya!

2011-08-12T20:33:00.000-07:00

8 more to Magic

Nine August, national day.
Watched the effervescent fireworks, esp liked the harry potter poof and love shapes.

Eleven August, first day of school.
Made little to no friends.

Twelve August, second day of school.
Very interesting lecturer.

Those are some of the things which happened recently.
As for today, I'm going to go buy 4D and buy luggage bag.

I knw someone said not to post cos fatface.
But these ones not fat ok!! And nobody reads charliedaisy except u n me. ^^

I'm really blessed to have these people around me, who still treats me as friend. Top lover Qian Qian princess!

And someone who I haven't seen in donkey years, DARLING VAL BB STRAWBERRY^^ Miss u baby~

And me being v aunty ready to sleep. HAHA!

And us tgt.. Miss us. Love u girls.

Those hugs and this trip meant alot to me.
Thank u friends.

2011-08-12T10:06:00.000-07:00

We're no longer fb friends.

I had to stop looking.
Stop checking out your fb.
Don't want to see anymore.
Have no right to ask about anything.

We're unrelated on fb.
But the relation in the heart is unremovable.
NO UNFRIEND BUTTON/OPTION THERE.

What I said never changed.
You'll always have a place in my heart.
But this is the distance we need to keep.

Bcos I cannot miss you.
It is illegal.

Daisy, always here. (:

2011-08-08T10:18:00.001-07:00

Wah srsly smack self palm face fuck wall man!!!
I see my lecture my assignments I want to cry...

2011-08-06T06:28:00.000-07:00

Shopping is good for health

Went to donate blood yesterday, it was unplanned!

Every girl abv 45kg should donate blood cos donating blood fucking makes u thin. Like a vampire suck the life out of u. HAHA. I feel so sick when I saw my blood going into that packet and its warm. Eeeeeks!!

Hope my little blood buds can save some life someday!
The bimbotic heart shape bandage. :D

Finally found glow in the darks!!!
The stuff I had been dreaming about. (:

Super excited and bei bought all 3 ^^
Can't wait to stick my room with all these. Hehe

Strawberries we bought smelt sooo nice and sweet omg ^^

Looks nice right?
NOT NICE LOR FUCKING SCAMMER STRAWBERRY'S SUPER SOUR!!!

Wna share my cheap bargains. ^^
Shampoo bottle set of 4 for $2.20 at Chinatown
Giant's multi layer lunch box at $4.99 in the perfect size!!
The white thingy is Dove's free travel bag which smells damn good and 10 Daiso fluffy bands with free orange bag.
Hahahaha so cute~~

Also bought somemore clothes tdy.
HAIRPEE~~

As for the wholemeal bread part, I just want to announce that I'm a convert!

White bread is like so gay to me now. LOL. Wholemeal is shiok, I keep making wholemeal cheese tuna. Very addictive! ^^

Ok vvv sleepy already.
Today and yesterday are happy days (:
Goodnight love u all !~

2011-08-05T08:05:00.000-07:00

Blood donation
Wholemeal bread
Cosmos, shooting stars, moon & galaxy glow in the darks

Tell u more tmr, head is spinning.
Nite nite~

2011-08-04T09:13:00.000-07:00

He left half of his lunchbox, for me.

His saychoo mama bought him this black bean stew pork rice and he was telling me how yummy it is over the phone and told me he left some for me.

He's so sweet!!!
I'm hopelessly in love with him (even more) over a half eaten lunchbox. Somebody please shoot me, I'm flying.

When he took out that lunchbox, there was more than half left..... And I swear by the life of me, damn that pork rice was so darn good. But that's besides the point.

A person like him, doing something like this is beyond him and beyond what I believe.

I had the best lunch in 20 years.
I am not exaggerating.

"He's annoyingly happy, all the time."
And I'm so in love with him.

friends please don't read my blog anymore its so embarrassing but im hopeless and im happy goodnight.

2011-08-03T23:37:00.000-07:00

Lovely August, thank you for letting me see.

Bei wanted to 看像, so we went.
I cannot believe how accurate it was.
So I too went for it. And I felt sooo idk emotional when I heard what she said.

She asked me, why are you so sad?
Then the two stones top and bottom all blocking. Wtf. Means everything is cooped up inside!

Everything she said was sooo true.
My negativity being a huge issue & family issues.
Guess I really need to change myself and look on the bright side.

On a sidenote,
Singapore is really not a place to LIVE in.
Yes true that we're much btr off than many other countries maybe financially, stability wise or idk cleanliness?

BUT it remains a fucking fact that our standard of living sucks to the ultimate core. And we're probably the WORST country to live in, according to this attribute.

Some people nag me, complain complain complain! You don't know how lucky you are lor! PUI! Fuck ur pighead man. Such people can only live in Singapore die in Singapore.

We're so misleaded.
Our entire lives are organized neatly into piles of boxes.
We're overly concerned with complying to standards, to dates, to deadlines, to laws, to rules. There's a reason why Name Wee suspect Lee Kuan Yew is Mao Ze Dong's kaki.

In fact, we're really quite communist under cover!
We club on weekends, bcos most our clubs open on weekends or weds. There's a certain time we do this and do that. NOTHING IS REALLY OUT OF FREE WILL!

I am not proud to be Singaporean.
And I can understand why sooo many other people hate us! Frog in the well and the worst part is we don't even know we're frogs.

Ahhh fol no more, just need to find a time and geddout of here.

And back to the earlier post,

~~Hopefully we cn get the Samurai, Geisha, Yakuza General studies mod!~~
WE GOT IT!!! WHOOHOOO!!

Sounds really cool and def muchhhh btr than 3203.
Oh, the funny shit they expect us to study~

May all the luck in the universe be with us, still. We'll gna need it for tut balloting tmr :D

Ahhhhhhh really can't stand the weather it's such a dear!
I'm feeling so lovey today. Hahaha love everything ^^

Love it more if I strike 4D.
Be charitable CLICK MY NUFFNANG cos it's lucky, u will strike 4D!!! HAHA

Goodbyes love u all~

2011-08-02T06:31:00.001-07:00

Welcome August
My courage, faith and blessing.

Thank you for arriving finally.
I felt normal today.

We went shopping at Ksl!
I'm still feeling pretty upset about the lovely top which the stupid idiot uncle gave me wrongly. I also don't knw why I didn't check that piece. Sigh, fated not to own and wear that top. But I'm sure I can find btr tops *self comforts*.

C'MON CHAR, IT'S JUST A TOP. ^^

We went to take a cab to Ksl with jus a vitasoy. LOL.
And bigchar bitches screamed:
"take the blueee one, it looks nicer~!"
The cab end up to be really very nice, shiok aircon and smelt like lemon.

Obviously the cab fare was like even nicer. Like double?!
But I tell you it was so worth it cos when we went back we took the normal red cab COS NO BLUEEEE to scream at and the cab smelt like stale urine -,-

My pretty sister who doesn't even look like my sister in the lemon cab. HAHA

Me ;D
I look like shit cos some asshole made me cry the entire fucking night. ( refuse to admit I'm naturally ugly hahahaha ) Anyways, stupid bastard fuck him!

This photo is to show how shiok, clean and comfy the cab is whoohooo~!!

Like some bag adv with the purple light behind my ears!!
Purple is my favorite ^^

This lucky bitches of mine SO HENG LOR got one orange bus fly pass then I snap so, she got her fav color too. Haha

Do we look alike?
LOL. I think even when I become thinner also still won't look alike.

So we went there with no intention to eat.
We bounced off the hairband madness by consoling ourselves that we will always have hair despite the one head fact. These are mine. Haha!

The next thing you're gna read wld be super bimbotic:

Big char and me also found a super yummy yoghurt and durian puff stall. Guess what bitches! It comes with free eye candy!!! HAHA. Soooooo cute the guy at the counter! He looks like a 50x more handsome version of Tank:

And then........ when big char was buying contacts, another cute guy came out from behind the counter and he looked 90% like this handsome bastard:

Wtf lah, we were like errrrrrrrrr....
And I convinced myself that he done PS. HAHA. Cannot believe my eyes sia.

Eye Candy Irony.
Candy for the sweets shop hottie and Eye for the damned contacts lenses cutie!!

So yea we bought packs of cigs and I can't believe I even bought coffe for that asshole before rushing back cos we're lazy sleepy and want to skip the after work crowd.

It was a pleasant day!
I'm still in love with the clothes I bought ^^

I cannot deny how much I love Malaysia ( shopping food boys hahahaha).
And I cannot deny how I can't find any spark in any sg guys anymore.

My life is going to go on just like how its supposed to.
You don't deserve anything I have to give, you were never worth it.

To you we were like friends with benefits but to me we were a couple. It's a misconception and I will never let it mislead me ever again.

Even with you in my life, I still go to sleep everynight feeling alone.

No diff lah really even more no diff than me cutting my hair.
HAHA YA I CUT MY HAIR, straight cut.
It's cute lah now but bushy. :D
n look at the bao fu(s) behind cb all my junk shit in my room fml

So that's all.
Hope you all enjoyed this post with piccas after such a long time (:

Love u all.
AUGUST WAN SUI!!!

2011-07-28T07:06:00.000-07:00

Everybody feels like nobody cares.
And the fact is, nobody cares.

Nobody will ever think it could be them, including ME.
But there it was on the xray film.
So scary, that white patch.

I don't want to know what is it.
I just want to have a happy 20th birthday.
Why must this be shown to me now? Also dunno is heng or suey, chest xray can scan until such thing.

"A lesion is any abnormality in the tissue of an organism (in layman's terms, "damage"), usually caused by disease or trauma."

你每次叫我“去死”
那。。如果这次我真的死了呢？

I really really love you my girls.
I know I'm so useless n always so full of excuse. I'm not even fit to be called a friend by being so selfish and living in my own world. I know my words are light and empty. It's no surprise all faith is lost in me. I am so sorry but I wouldn't have the cheek to ask you all to not hold it against me. So friends, give up on me, forget about me, hate me until I show it in actions to prove my worth to you, to you all.

2011-07-27T09:23:00.000-07:00

What do you want for your birthday

All my 19 years, I have always anticipated my birthday badly esp 1month before it.

I would be so excited bcos of all the plans I've for it on the 21st.

I've always had the thinking, it's my big day! It's a milestone and I'm gna be the star for the day/night and I'm gna rock the party!

This year I'm going to have my first 2x birthday.
No more to 1x goodbye teenage years.
It hurts to be an adult.
It's frightening.

This year, I want my birthday to come soon.
I want it to come now.

Not bcos I'm going to celebrate it at the chalet or the club with a hugeass birthday cake and all my friends. I probably don't even have something new to wear on my 20th birthday when I would have been carefully shopping for my birthday suit the previous years.

This year I'm waiting for my birthday bcos I'm going to get to make a wish.

I'm going to make one wish.
Just one wish.

I just want that one wish to be granted.
I want no presents no cakes no nothing.
If there was something I want, I want my friends to wish me happiness on my birthday.

That is the only thing I need now.

It's near.
One wish is not too much to ask.. Right?

2011-07-25T22:05:00.000-07:00

Random thoughts...

Dress up a lil and spend some time producing a pretty face with make up.
Mega sigh cos 2 kg in less than 1 month is not very possible.
Love the weather, love the rain.
Anticipating my new school, my new life. It will be a brand new beginning for me, for everything. Hopefully it can give me the drive to drop the unnecessary burden.
Need some shopping, need new clothes.
Miss my friends.
I know August will save me.
First time in years, zero plans for birthday. Could be a good thing.
Have to stop worrying and stressing. Chill pills please.
Forgot how a club smells like much less to say sounds like.
Wondering if I'd ever get back to my tiong days soon.
Is this what I really want?
Self reminder, I'm still 19!
Really excited for school, can't wait to meet my new textbooks.
Need to go and jog, lazy recently.
I want a normal office job 8-5, 5 day week, OT give double or 1.5, angmoh boss who offer employees many upgrading opportunities ( step one wna go course lol ), many welfare benefits, annual sponsored overseas trips or cash money, pay me $2.2k and abv each month aft cpf deduction and I will work for your company for the rest of my life.
I am a simple woman. HAHA
I wish I strike toto or 4d tmr/sat/sun.
Handsome boys are a curse.
Don't get a boyfriend or a girlfriend.
Don't fall in love cos it's a scary thing if you want to get out but can't.
Just have sex and get over it. Then again, no lah. Don't have sex cos if you get pregnant you'll die.
If I slim down will my fingers remain chubby?

2011-07-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

Just learn to manage your time

2011-07-14T01:27:00.000-07:00

Independence, Nostalgia & University

I never felt more alone this morning. ):

After some thinking, I realised that expectations creates self pity and comparison makes us forget to cherish what we already have.

I also think that I am so accustomed to having a companion that I've dismiss my very own abilities. Wtf! Fact is this, we ARE capable of doing many many things ourselves. For the past half year, it occurred to me how lazy and clingy I used to be. Which is bad.

Take today, I expected someone to accompany me to school. Or at the very least, to be on the phone with me when I was searching for my school, as bimbotic as that sounds.. Because, I don't want to be alone!

I felt vulnerable cos everyone else had their friends with them and they knew where they're going whereas I was like a freak, fish out of water, don't even know which stop to alight. And my plan was 1. just squeeze up the bus and follow the crowd (LOL) or 2. cab there

I was so upset and angry while waiting for the forever not gna appear 95 that I was literally singing vulgarities to flowerqian when she greeted me "gd morning". HAHA OOPS. Being alone at that moment didn't mean all my friends abandoned me what!

Don't expect, don't compare. Just rely on your good brain, pair of stalking eyes, buey paiseh mouth and for me my mortal-combat-like body which is highly skilled in the act of squeezing up buses.

Aiya the whole purpose of this text is to prove that I'm actually quite useful and I should be proud of myself for the things I CAN actually do! HAHA :D

And then we have nostalgia );

We went back to Siglap today.

Ya alot of good comments joy and laughter. But I felt quite somber.

I met my best teacher Fong and my favorite teacher Yong. LOL for the ong-s.

Without Fong, I will not will never be who I am today.
I swear this.

She was the person who showed me that she cared the shit out of me always telling me how similar we were and really sayang me. );

And my cute Yong made me want to study during O'level period cos she'd so darn funny bouncing around, because of her I love maths. (:

Just touring the school and this was my sec 4 classroom. Hehe!

And the infamous Siglap Jail.
Detention rocks. \m/

Finally the big U.
Seriously, I'm afraid I can't fit in.
No freakin teacher was like oh I knew it. Haha.
Everyone was like WTFOMGCOOKTHATIRRITATINGCHAR!

Tdy the hall was filled with 80% or more tiongs.
It's like electric shock to my eyeballs, lightning strike straight into my eardrums. Sy suggested that we might be partially deaf aft sch. I will try to love uni days filled with incessant Chinese ramblings!

I feel scared that I was gna meet extremely clever, rich and proud classmates when I remembered what another good teacher or lecturer told me. "Never let your self worth be determined by someone else's net worth."

Thanks rochey, love u (:

So today or for the past half a year that 混蛋王八蛋臭鸡蛋 made me see what gold I am made of and his hell fires will not melt me lor.

真金不怕火炼

I become less childish, whiney and learn how to shuddup. HAHA. Jitao devil training sia. But I am not geh gan, is God play me. What to do when God is our boss!

So ya abrupt end to this meaningless rubbish.
Byebye~

2011-07-13T09:34:00.000-07:00

by Adrian Tan- author of the teenage textbook:

" One does not have to be evil to be hated.
In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average.

Life’s a mess.
You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate. Don’t expect anything.

Do not work.
Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Love somebody
It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it. "

Inspired.

My voice will be heard. I will live for today and be free tomorrow. I will enjoy what I do everyday. And I will continue to believe in love and the great wonders of it.

2011-07-12T03:05:00.000-07:00

Fish

I am freaking sick of econs!!!
I need to geddout of my house.

SEE THE BOOK I WNA PUKE!

2011-07-07T09:17:00.000-07:00

肥伦宝贝　

Fooey say beibei cute! ♥ LOL
Love her so much, the only person who'd listen to my stories and go "so sweet" even though ultimate verdict is still negative but.. at least! Hehe.

Call up my darlings to chat aft work tdy.
It felt really nice! Gna go back to Siglap next week! (:

How u like the 2 cute ♥ ♥ HAHAHA
Seeing other friends changing dp made me wnt to camwhore! ^^

I wish my fringe can stay at the side all the time!
12.20am now. Haven't been up and studying in a super long time! All my bones are old and cracking. But I will get over the inertia!

I'm scared to go uni. ):
How will the ppl there be like?
The sch work don't even feel like asking, cfm 干够力.

Thank God Siewyin helped me out if not alread 完蛋!　
I wish she is in same course/class as me!!!

And I really dowan to fail QET!!!
Please求求你 ):

Those econs and accounting 2hr essays I think no hope alread but if QET also gone den I think I can call myself Charliepython lor. Hahaha choi choi choi~

I guess everyone is starting sch soon!
Goodluck and best wishes my friends!! :D

2011-07-05T06:53:00.001-07:00

Why catch me this time?
At the brink of goodbye, you soften my heart.

虽然心里很难过，我从不成对你说些什么
是不是之间的默契告诉了你我要离开?

在最后一秒把我拉回来
当我已经决定走而不回头，你却变了。。。

人总是等到失去才来珍惜
想过要离开不是因为不爱你，是太爱太在乎所以太容易被你伤害

我不需要你对我很好
什么都可以不需要

说了一万次，好好爱我就够
脾气没改没关系，情况依旧也无所谓

今天我。。开心
因为今天，你爱我了记得我的存在了想我了珍惜我了

你的 “ 第一次 ” 我不会忘
爱你

2011-07-01T19:27:00.000-07:00

So afraid to wake up

I thought that dreams come true.
What a pig.

I thought that those fairy tales perfect love story are real.
How wrong can I get.

When my 曹格 (the real one) sang 笑我笨 and 丑角 he was already screaming to me" I wrote this song for you to wake up not carry on dreaming!

鸡白 I'm like thick in the head or what.
曹格 was telling me to wake up everytime I listened to his songs to sleep!!!

Even as reality has showed itself and smashed my dreams, I don't want to believe it. Am I utterly insane or utterly insane. It's like LIAR! I CHOOSE U I BELIEVE U!

Bcos for the first time in my life I thought that my dream came true. Walaneh now I can hear myself saying wake up your idea dey.

I'm a dumbie.
I asked myself what happened and hey where's my life? Then I realised, I already lost it all.

I'm scared to let go now bcos I don't want to risk.
BUT RISK WHAT? Lose lose situation. Either way, I'm fucked!

Am I going to continue walking in circles pretending everything is fine until the day when he packs his bags go back home and get married to whoever and obviously not to me for that matter THEN I will sit up and say oh there he goes, he's gone so I guess I can move on now.

Fuck no!!!
I'm like not even 20?!
I should get out of hell and he should go to hell (which I think he probably will for being so black hearted).

Wake up charlieblyton wake up F5 refresh life go to uni and start anew.
August come now!!!

Honesty is the best policy.
If you ever done something, one day someone will find out no matter how well you hide it.

I will tell this story.
No, definitely not for revenge, just to warn others so they won't crash fall like me.

Akan datang.

On a happier note, I'm gna write schedule full full and get some money to curl my crowning glory which is now nothing but a messy mane. Toodles!

2011-06-30T08:10:00.000-07:00

I'm determined to turn 45 on my 20th

Actually I'm thinner by 4kg :D
I think I used to weigh 52? Now 48 leh song bo!

But then I think cannot really tell. HAHA :/
BUT THEN Mum say I become thin tdy when we went watch movie cos she nvr look at me properly for a damn long time lor!

Aiya this post is purely to haolian my jian fei success.
FLOLMAX.

So I think 48 to 45 is not so hard?
I want to achieve another goal in 2011!!!
The sadder I am the lighter I get hahahaha love it.

I wanna remain in piccas!
With the right angles I can scam ppl. HAHA and on a sidenote sorry to those jealous bitches who think I photoshop my face small small, IT'S JUST A GOOD ANGLE. Just too bad you don't know yours~

But in real life = cannot keng then walao u can see fat face/chubby cheeks = fail ):

I like my left eyebrow and I hope my face turns thinner by 2108 \m/ hahaha love u all bye

2011-06-28T06:47:00.001-07:00

You are the guardian of your happiness.

Stand up. Remember what you are really made off.

I am strong, courageous and I will give myself happiness if nobody else can. I am still that warrior whom I used to be. I fell into a dark hole but I got saved today. Enclosed in absolute darkness for 7 months I finally saw the light. Nothing feels colder than the cold chill that pierce through your heart when you feel a genuine heartache. I've had enough. I'm not beaten. Never will be. I will never allow myself to stay as a weakling as that pathetic self-pitying soul anymore. I woke up from my sad dream and I told me this: nobody can give you more strength than yourself. Nothing is more real then your very own willpower. Stop crying, stop whining, stop relying. You need only to realise what you are made off in order to stand up and stand strong. The fire in my soul is reignited today when I lost my first and only favorite ring. It was a painful tight slap in the cheeks so painful it shook the sleeping giant warrior up. They always say, when you are already down and out and the ultimatum of devastation comes along you either give up and die or you fucking stand up and fight back. And I was a fighter and I always will be. I only got hurt bcos I allowed myself to. I let myself get hurt so I could feel pity for myself. But that was stupid and unnecessary. I guess I just wanted to feel the desperation the sadness and see if I could just die in all the trauma. But looks like I can never be traumatized enough. If any 20 year old girl been through my life they prolly killed themselves 10 times over. Trust me. It's even more mind blowing then a tv drama serial. That is why I promised myself to write a book about my life before I die. I want to tell other people my story. People who suicide have lost. As long as you are dead, everything is gone. So as long as I am alive, I will fight. I will fight for myself fight for my own happiness. Nothing, no person or object will ever be relied on to give me happiness anymore. I have reached another chapter of my life. I know what I want now. I know what my goals are. And I know I have to keep being strong and remember how much power I really have. I will never fail, I will never give up, I believe I will do great and I am stronger than ever. There will not be anymore tears and heartache. I will love my heart and protect it. I will protect myself and I will get what I want. The 19 year old curse will pass and brighter days will come. I will stop doing pointless things and instead of dwelling in pain and unhappiness, I will find myself a way out. Even if there is no road ahead, I will create one for myself. Nothing is too hard too big too scary too painful to bear. I have felt all the pain I never wanted and felt my heart tear apart a million times. Today was the breaking point, I lost my favorite ring and it murdered a self-pitying clingy sad bitch. But I am not dead. I kicked myself back to life. I am not fearless but I have courage. I am no saint but I have willpower. I will live very very well bcos I want to and I will work for toward it. I once forgot that I was a fighter and a protector of my own life my own everything. I stupidly gave that important role to someone else. Nobody will care for your happiness more than yourself. Remember that. You will be the one who loves yourself the most until the day you die so if you don't stand up for yourself nobody else will or can. Be strong, be stronger. We have the power and nobody can take it away from us. Love yourself, don't let yourself suffer. It is not worth it. Nothing and nobody is worth it. If you have a problem and it hurts, seek a way out. There is always a way, use your courage to find it. Keep the fire burning. Be your best warrior and win the war just like how I won mine.

2011-06-25T17:58:00.001-07:00

MY HEART SO PAIN

AND I AM SO STUPID

I HAVE THE COURAGE TO DIE

2011-06-22T04:45:00.000-07:00

BAD TOOTH

Before he go in he still did a act cute pose and say "scary" !
Super heartpain when the dentist pluck his tooth.

The needle super big long and inject 3 times wtf! Then worst alot of blood and the tooth hard to come out omg ):

I rather be stabbed by knife than pluck tooth!

The process is real torture.
Bei was so unwell n tired he ask me to give him my pillow. LOL CUTENESS. Never see him sleep so tired-ly before.

MY BEIBEI SO KELIAN! ):

And tmr is my turn lucky no need to pluck anything :D
Brush teeth properly, don't get to the point when you need to pluck off ur tooth! Cfm cry.

Totally broke bank left $39.
Money come back to me? YES COME BACK.
Sigh have to go and work. I hate work. Want to go school faster!

2011-06-18T21:54:00.000-07:00

Happy Seven

Laddaland is so freaky.
I literally jumped and scream when the stupid dog barked. HAHA. Epicness.

Nua-ing around in my room aimlessly. LOL
I have nothing to do.

Super messy room & long hair ^^

This year I wish for bouncy flouncy curls for my birthday!
Can? :D

So many people's birthday coming soon!
Can't wait for mine. (:

Since I'm so aimless now lets see how my 2011 gone so far..

Cried the most ):
Jogged the most :D
Achieved something commendable finally (:
Hanging out in the west and jb the most ^^
Took the most mrt rides in my life
Being bitten till blue black the most :{
And another fun new thing I've been doing the most this year is this:

Tanjia-ing!

First location at Pioneer Carnival

Girlie Yi ^^

Fatty Farm hehe

Jurong Point our 旺地!!!
In my lucky shirt :D

Marsiling~~

A recent picca of me carrying super big bag to Girlie yi house. When going to the mrt I saw alot of 阿兵哥 and my bag is bigger than theirs! Oh I feel thinner already~

Let's hope the next half of 2011 will be better!
xoxo

2011-06-15T21:31:00.001-07:00

Can my cb right eye stop twitching!!!
It's twitching damn madly since I open my eye in the morning ):

Something bad is going to happen then faster happen!
Let me kana bang by car and save all these unnecessary worry and fear.

I think I still haven't paid my 19 year old curse.
Want to collect debt then faster collect don't torture me ley!

My right eye is very accurate in warning me things.
And stop me from doing stupid things which results in worse endings.

DAMN IT LOR!
It's still twitching as I'm typing every single word here.
Fml max.

But to self comfort, self assure and self deny,
I THINK IT'S JUST AN ULTRA TIRED RIGHT EYE (:
It's going to be okay and I should stop being a superstitious moron.

2011-06-12T04:43:00.001-07:00

They say do everything when you're young

I guess we all don't want to regret
After all we only got one short life to live

And so here I am looking at my own life
It's almost 20 years and I think if I die tmr I have no regrets at all

I can't really remember when I was before 12 So lets start from after 12

12-13
Puppy love~~
Hanging out at playground arcade bb courts
This is also the Jap period when everyone go bugis street and buy checkered pants and lace tops
Also learn how to ttype liike this shuuper acct cuute!!!! awwwxzxz ii lOve euuxz
Goal? Just wanted to have fun and fall in love so innocent

14-15
Hella rebellion whoohooo~~
This is the best time of my life everyone deserves to be hella badass once in their life if not I think you live for nothing man!
Massive bf changing period HAHA
When ppl call me lian I damn seh bin *(SHY)*
Used to have like 200+ readers on my blog per day and now like only 19 readers?! LOL
Goal? Just wanted all the attention in the world, wanna feel damn popular like superstar, wanted to be the hottest topic

16
It was coming to an end of my secondary school life~~
I woke up my childish ideas and quickly study for O'lvl although still a lil angst
Knew that I can't go on being an idiot and didn't want to fail O'lvl cos there were teachers in school who had faith in me and supported me
Goal? Do well in O'lvl

17
Become a better person~~
Shocked myself and many others that I was able to make it to TP cos alot of ppl kua suey me bo lor yong cfm go ite HAHAHA!
My O'lvl results made me believe in myself that maybe I can be those studying material and I can also get good results like the others.
Last time I still think walau they so noob also can get such good result why I cannot?
Goal? Wanted to be very seh bin in a GOOD way when I'm in Poly *(Winks)*

18-19
Worked my ass off in Poly~~
Was a totally different me as compared to the 14-15. In TP, I cut my antenna short focus all on one and only channel study. HAHAHA!!! No distractions neither did I go and find people's trouble or bother much about sch ppl just go and study finish liao go home. I only fight back when assholes come and disturb my peace. But overall I'm like a fish in poly. LOL so peaceful and quiet.
Goal? Put in my 101% and prove myself

AND SO,

I achieved all my goals!
I made it did it got what I wanted.
I'm very thankful that I'm so fortunate.

After living in this world for coming 20 years, I did what I wanted, I challenged myself and see myself change. I can be super goodass and super badass. Tried both seen many things seen many people worked many jobs had many bfs and seen through many fuckers in life.

I am selfish bcos this is my life a life I lived for myself not another so even though I will be in debt for long long time, I choose to go. I will get my karma and I will pay. But I choose to live with no regrets. I know I will not regret making my decision as it is painful but good. I will always remember the good which tsl have gave me and I will always be there for this once most impt person in my life. I really owe you too much, but time will heal and we will move on. But I will never forget you.

I'm happy with my life now and that's all that matters. I have lived 2 decades to know that I don't need to heed any judgement as long as I am truthful with myself and bcos only I know best the true situation. If you never stood in my shoes, don't think that you know a centimeter of the roads I've walked.

Now I do not seek fame, I do not seek the thrill of being at the top as all these comes with a price. I asked myself what role am i going to play in the 20-23 period of my life. Haha. I guess the most impt goal is to lead a happy life (:

So yeah.
A hella long post for you 19 readers who are still reading my tiny useless blog! :D

Thanks for watching!
Actually wanted to upload my zhilian picca but photobuck is having issues tsk :/
Next time! Goodbye~

2011-06-07T05:49:00.000-07:00

I am not God

I am a human who have my own relationship problems. My problem may be much more worst than yours.

Ownself can't settle my problems yet trying to help others who are going through bad times? Why am I so geh gan? I am not obliged to help!

I'm sorry if I have a fucked up relationship.
I'm sorry if I spend more time trying to save my own relationship than trying to help you.

I'M SORRY?
You really think I'm sorry?

Fuck no.
You love your bf? I also love mine.

Please don't ask me for advice don't ask me for help if you want to come and shoot me in the end. Handle your own issues if you think I'm such a lousy person to begin with. Don't come to me anymore.

I'M SICK OF THIS CRAP TREATMENT.

Don't blame me for shitty endings when you ask me for help.
Please ah don't make it like I'm the kaypo one who chup one fucking leg and extra when you never tell me the whole story and I'm suppose to catch all the damn balls.

I'M NOT A CLOWN.
I will always be there for those who I lovebut please don't make me feel like I'm taken for granted.

Princess darling this post is not for you.

2011-05-26T07:08:00.001-07:00

我成功了

2011-05-19T08:32:00.000-07:00

SBS ZHALAT ABIT LEY

Today the cheebeh ah tiong bus driver missed the seletar camp flyover and you know what he did?

HE FUCKING GOSTUN ON THE HIGHWAY.

Siao turban, he should just go str right!!! Wtf crazy or what?! Playing with our life meh!!!

IT IS MOTHERFKING ILLEGAL EVEN ROAD IDIOT LIKE ME KNOW!!!

Then nvm, sunday.
Another pundek at the interchange. The queue already overflow into the walkway and we all wait from 5.58 to 6.31pm ok. IS MORE THAT 30 MINS CAN!!!

HE STILL SONG SONG SITTING IN THE BUS PLAYING HIS PHONE.

U say si buey si?!

Then another bus driver come and ask him to start driving the queue very long alr, AND HE JUST GIVE THE DRIVER A COCK FACE.!!!!!

The other driver also lan lan dulan bo bian.

What the hell are these problematic tiongsters doing sia?!
Wa sometimes really sieh pekcek with all these foreigners. YA ALOT OF THEM ARE GOOD PPL BUT ALOT OF THEM ARE PLAIN FUCKERS LIKE THOSE 2 TIONG KOK DRIVERS FROM SBS!!!

I dunno why gov welcome such suckers?! I mean u wna invite them here, THEN TRAIN THEM LAH. Walaoeh gostun on highway sio THINK PLAY ARCADE AH.

Fuck u chao tiong tiongSSS!!!
If I die in your hands I will go to china and possess your multiple wives!

THIS IS SINGAPORE OK.
U wake up ur stupid idea and FOLLOW SINGAPORE LAW OR U JOLLY WELL FK BACK TO CHINA.

2011-05-19T04:59:00.000-07:00

Our friends wants the best for us.
But only we know what's best for ourselves.
I'm obviously not an idiot so rest assured, my actions are justified.

2011-05-14T20:56:00.000-07:00

Parfume & Accessories for Sale

Paris Hilton Heiress 100ml
Condition: approx more than 80ml left
(without bottle cap)
$19 meet up

Escada Moon Sparkle 30ml
Condition: approx more than 70ml left
(with bottle cap)
$19 meet up

Black Diamond Fur / Burberry Creme
Condition: Both Brand New
$5 mailed each

Glitter Hair Band
Condition: Used once
$3 mailed

Nail & Eyelash Falsies
Conditon: All Brand New

$6 mailed for all Nails

Black Love with Glue

Grey Pearls (Pre Glued)

Black Glitter Cross (Pre Glued)

$3 mailed for Dolly Diamond Eyelash

email me @ charlottenxe@live.com.sg
Or tag/fb/whatever! (:

2011-05-13T21:27:00.000-07:00

How am I

Idk why my turban hair never even grow a tiny bit sia
And I also very unhappy the chocolate sauce so little when its extra $1 lah still put sprinkler think I small girl );

It's mid May already~
My money almost all used up.
I've got a job at Kbox and I think this is freakin karma cos last time very cbk go n throw tidbits in the room and made a mess. :X

20 May I'm gna be an invigilator.
See who dare to cheat! HAHA.

Then after that week, graduation!
I am also waiting for end of this month so Nuffnang can send me moolah. Weeeee~

All the gold troops please come and donate to the empty mine. :D
Thinking about my 4080 now, it open and someone never buy for me!!! ):

Oh well just part time here part time there lor.
Miss shopping for clothing. Now most of the time buying facial stuff -.-

I think the Hada labo is not bad!
If everyday spam I think face will be quite moisturize only that I super lazy. Hehe!

And I don't like my new pillow super hard!! ):
So stupid press simi press $30 leh! Not kingcoil somemore cb.

Okay that's all for my life.
Going to nua abit before watch movie! Bye~~

2011-05-10T04:19:00.000-07:00

I like the garbage bag part.

Waste to be broken cos of a trash.
Well go to sleep, we all get tired sometimes.
Just remember to go and retrieve that precious gem which is the life to your soul when you wake up from your sleep before someone else picks it up while you're still dreaming.

As for me, I learnt that right decisions are sometimes the hardest. But its okay, I am still here. As long as we both live... you know, you are a permanent resident (:

2011-05-07T22:13:00.001-07:00

Had been thinking about you alot lately.
Perhaps it was what D told me about how we prolly cld never let each other go.

An outsider cld see this and tell me this.
And it is so true.

I miss u bob.

2011-05-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

IT IS MY MONEY.
I FUCKIN EARNED IT.
SEEMS LIKE I CANT EMPHASIZE IT MORE.

Yes that is how impt money is to me.
ITS SO DAMN FREAKIN IMPT TO ME COS THAT SEEMS TO BE ALL THAT'S IMPT TO U.

You make me pretty sure that I pay a price to buy your soul.
FML

2011-05-05T22:34:00.000-07:00

I like how opposition voices out the heat most of us are feeling. I like the power in their talk and I like the fact they see our problems in the childish way which we see it. I support opposition for talking and thinking like us. I feel like maybe they understand us better. But secretly in my heart I'm fucking scared that PAP will lose tmr. ):

Come to think of it:

Opposition = understand us = think very like us = think very like commoners = are probably very common also

Common ppl be gov very gd? Maybe not.

They could be just playing on our emotions with the issues which we feel strongly about. So we kinda get really mad at gov and love them.

But then when we think rationally, we are just normal citizens and can talk nonsense blabber rubbish and then forget it the next day. Who's gonna give a damn anyway but imagine our gov do that and forget it the next day then we all hong gan lor.

We silly fools may have been fooled.
Ya la even though we also dunno who is fooling who.
Opposition can make our gov consider the issues to our concern. But the opposition is still not stable, have no 资格 to be our gov yet.

Goodluck my sunny island, pls dont sink in the sea on 7 May.

2011-04-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

Inspired by KJ

My gastric is so fucking painful now, totally regret puking the tomyam noodles on Saturday fml max. Feel like a stone under my lungs ccb. ):

Went for btt e-test aft buying the graduation gown.
I am still so not gam wan to spend that money! Ya la u ppl cfm think why I so niao cos only $20++ after refund why kpkb so much. BUT I REALLY THINK THEY DAMN TOK CAI TAO!

The gown is like used and re-used ever since dunno when cos the plastic is those STAPLE one. Wtf and my gown got a weird smell I THINK THEY NVR EVEN BOTHER TO WASH LAH CHAO CHEE BAI. Fuck them they earn like $20x how many diploma x the amt of student in the diploma. Bloody money sucker.

I wear the gown for 2 hours? The woman still can tell us 'we lend you the gown for 1 month leh! Who will even bother to take out and take picture at home for the 1 month right? Siao. We only buy 1 month in advance cos of ur stupid sales deadline. Tsk irritating waste my $20++!!!

Then we went for the btt.
Damn funny met up with them aft so long and still so giggly. (: Kj abit jialat can read the btt book and left/drop at the bus stop aft we chiong up the bus 8. LOL. Then she go and take cab while foo and I cont in the shiok aircon bus 8. I still very proud of myself cos last time work ubi and say tell Kj to meet us thr straight when she offer to cab us. Cb end up go down one bus stop earlier and walk with foo under the fucking hot sun carrying the bloody gown plus hangers! LMFAO!!! At that time I was screaming WHERE IS KJ OMG TAXI WHERE ARE U~~~

Then even funnier we reach there and foo forgot her password cos geh kiang go n change. End up pay $5 more. LOL. Super cute. And we also saw pcpy friend she so clever she pass her btt!! :D

Hope the 3 suaku ng chia foo can also pass swee swee on wed. HAHA. ( Am I dreaming when typing this ) Oops :X

My good old fooey!!♥

My camera effect good or what. HEHE! Chiasie daisy :D

Laopo~~

Then we end up laughing at the kopi tiam debating endlessly over pasir ris tampines or bedok, pasir ris tampines or bedok x 1 million. Finally my scissors paper stone win and we all go to bedok. Wee~~ the (imo) useless bedok point which only got food.

Yea that was today and if not for kj's blog posts I dont think I would have ever blogged properly today or anytime soon.

I am so unemployed.
Wondering how's everyone living their new lives.
I am so cb only willing to work for $8 per hr jobs if not rather work in my dreams.

HAHA FML I AM AN OFFICIAL PIGASS.
Can graduation come faster like really FASTER?
I want to be an official pigass graduand and I want to get my diploma cert.

Actually I did think of how its like in uni.
Will it be like poly? Better? Worse?

Hope everyone can freaking grow up already.

But I am not a clique person.
I don't really hangout with big groups.
Esp if there are ppl Im not familiar with, I rather not go.
If you want me to go out sit in a group and hear ppl bird talk then I rather rot at home.

I like to do what I like.
I also don't like to listen to what I don't like.
Just like if you want to talk cock sing song and cannon bomb go ahead when did I ever stop anyone? We all have our own freedom. (:

I will only sorta hangout with my closer friends or my boyfriend. Cos there is a point in hanging out what cos you really pour your heart out to these ppl you laugh and smile and share genuinely. You will NEVER be afraid around these ppl. If you get what I mean.

Some girls cannot stand others being flirty or being btr than them. Then how? I am like that what. I am flirty bitch who loves to win and is so haolian all the time.

But my point is there are still people who loves me so much bcos they can understand me. They see the good in me and I don't need the others who can't. I'm not a beggar you know so why must I act virgin act helpful act humble for friends? If you are like that why dont you go fuck yourself.

Never gna let redundant unhappiness affect me in uni.
And its quite stupid everything you do must zhalat even blog also must think of other ppl feeling. Siao don't like then dun read also never take gun force you.

Oh well morale of the story for me is dont get to close with ppl in school. It'll never really work out. But I still love my poly friends! Those who loves me of cos. I know who really cares. (:

2011-04-20T05:50:00.000-07:00

How come u know that is a wall yet u die die want to go and bang go and feel the pain then u gam wan? Everything from Heaven to Hell is telling u no no and fucking no yet u still say yes yes I die also want to try.

因为你不想对不起自己
要轰轰烈烈毫无遗憾敢敢的活一次

命只有一条每一天都要活的开心要做自己爱做的事每一天都不要浪费

每个人都在笑我说我不知所措
总以为就快有奇迹的发生
才察觉自己是那麽地那麽地笨

那又怎样？
起码笨得甘愿
不用到棺材都要捶心肝
命说长不长所以快点去寻找你梦寐以求的生活

不要在小圆圈里挣扎
HIONG HIONG JI PAI 闯出去
就算结果是碰壁而死那也死的值得

我的朋友我的姐妹我的公主谢谢你

2011-04-11T04:35:00.000-07:00

As much as i would like to crumble down and die into the earth beneath me i cant. Is painful painfullest i swear to god above. I will be strong we must be strong. Love wont kill us we will live on. Brace up.

2011-04-10T06:44:00.000-07:00

Old Kam Leng 酒楼

I love midnight exploring with the gang :D
Meatball madness before busting this abandonned hotel.

哈哈悄悄他的鬼样子~

Feng Bobby and Jas with one of the nice chinese drawings

Beautiful peacock art on the wall
还有我的鸟脸哈哈哈！

Super eerie picca no one know where the heck the smoke come from and my camera failed twice while taking this wtf sieh freaky max!

Marc the model boy chey chey~

Ting & Xenia (:
LOOK AT THE AMT OF ORBS

201 的美少男战士！

Nic I forgot what is our midnight gang called. LOL.
Our group photo ^^

One of the cool old school doors。

Leading to the toilets！

Cuties in the house! (:
This was one of the weird chimeny I think.

Climb up to the roof too.

Jumpshots in Kam Leng!
Mi Re Do...

Weeeeeeeee!!~

Welcome our full gear Team Leader Te :D

Actually this place is quite dangerous the floorboards seem like they can give way anytime and even the ceilings are rotting ):

我等着你回来~我等你爬上来~

Shiokest ice cream from tsl super love it! ^^

After Kam Leng we went to Neo Tiew (:

很像在小便哈哈！

Whoooooo Ting u are very scary here.. LOL

THE TINY SMURF DOOR :D
好可爱！！

Ooolala massive orbery~

老大 in action. HEHE!

I really love how he pulls off the sockies look so well :D

Ending off our ghostbuster trip with us and the awesomest bullet shells! We've gotta go again guys! ♥

2011-04-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

HI DUDES N DONUTS

How is everybody?
Feeling abit detached lately ):

Finished my senang job at Posi.
A good and rich company with angmoh boss LOL! I KEEP THINKING OF FOOEY WHENEVER I SEE MY BOSS.

So I am a lil unemployed now.
I hope my pay comes in soon man.
No more eating yong tau foo anymore.

Ok below abit camwhore. :D
Try to use the webcamera when I off the lights.

Any scar creams to intro? My face is so terrible ):

I also need to go and have plastic surgery. HAHA.
Not greedy just wish I have pretty eyes and slimmer cheeks. ^^

Will you miss me?

Found this picca in my folders.
It's so nice so I must post. Princess & Niu Nai. ^^

Going to be quite free, kinda good cos I will have time to study my freakin btt!!! Really damn hoseh lor I know nuts about those bloody signs. If fail really xiasueylotte max. LOL.

I can't wait for graduation.
I can't wait for my fuckin money.
I can't wait to go to my new school in Aug.

2011-04-03T08:36:00.000-07:00

FKING MISS U TO DEATH TSL ):

2011-03-30T05:43:00.000-07:00

回来了

我还是我

还是一样白白胖胖的小肥娥

只是头发长了~

忘了说我也年青 5 岁
KAWAII NEH~ 哈哈哈！！！

我还是很在乎你如果为什么真的有答案那只有两个字就是注定
很多时候不是人不会珍惜只是缘份和命是我们无法控制的
相信我我也不好过你没有错全部是我错

不好的我早点离开太好的你应该是我做过最对的事
欠你一辈子

你永远是最好的最值得的 ♥

I'm so kannasai buey ba plus xmm in the purple picca!!!
LOL MAX. Wtf la like last time anot. Hehe!
Miss my girls and tsl too (:

2011-03-22T03:48:00.000-07:00

Without money, I feel so handicapped

Wish I can go Tw in June

I'm sleepy

2011-03-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

We don't talk about it.

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................
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v

Because it hurts.

2011-03-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

I have no answers to all those questions

But I know for sure that you are my soulmate, you are the person who I will love and care for the rest of my life.

If you realise, we can talk about anything at anytime. It's just the chemistry which we have and can never be changed no matter what happens.

We are too important to each other and will never bear to lose the we in us.

Maybe we don't have to. ?

If you were to have a report card for the boyfriend test, candidate TSL would have graduated with flying fucking colors. You are the best anyone can ever have. Bcos of you, I learn to count my blessings.

I love you.
Thank you for making me the luckiest girl in the world, for the rest of my life.

2011-03-06T03:29:00.000-08:00

我是一个漂亮的花平，你爱我吗？♥

I feel like my whole body is rotten with sleepy worms.
Why everyday sleep and sleep also not enough.. ):

The job is robot much. Lucky its short term or not I will become a stupid + very fat girl and now I know I can never ever work office jobs in my future career cos I will cfm ki siao.

Oh well few weeks nia.
Just gonna earn some money to keep me alive.
Spend it all on shopping and clubbing and transport. LOL.

I realise that I'm becoming very vain recently.
Cos my face, skin and hair condition became very bad from all the terrible school days.

害。。真讨厌。。希望我的拯救（脸和头发）的大行动不回来得太迟。。。

Aft swensons, nicko accompany me to shop and end up spending a bomb on alot of skincare stuff and new shoes!!! Love shoes and my ears will die from nagging ltr.

Super gek xim that my nude wedges one side lost. ):
Xialotte-rella lost her shoe。。
鸡白都没有一个白马王子买一双唤我害失败 x 1000

Anyway, a few delayed birthday posts for this year. ^^

Bad boy's 21st.
He taught me MJ, best teacher n smart student. HAHA :D

A random shopping day at town!(:

Also celebrated Buddy's 22nd birthday..
之恋哈哈哈

Just look at his screaming mad cool cake!!!

祝你心想事成！

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 老菜哈哈!

Brother 万岁

Happy 22nd Buddy boy~

The sweetest kisses!

We had to take a picca with the cute plus SUPER EXPENSIVE cake!

Princess gave me a cute float!
TOTALLY SUGARISH~

We went for steamboat.
MY FAV GOLDEN MUSHROOMS!!!

JB NEW HAIRCUT ^^

HAHAHA. Marc and his bloody meat.

Birthday boy giving a kawaii face!

My Bob tee (:

BUDDY 184 3344

Nic 在生鸡蛋。。加油~

Heng ah heng!
U shld use more diff angle u so pretty my baby (:

Darling girl :D

FAT FAT TUMMY~

Sometimes I wonder why nic so suapakia can just sit on the walkway and tie shoelace!!!

I wna go jb n buy more lipsticks :}

好啦就这样。。
累死猪扒要睡觉了。晚安~

2011-03-03T07:36:00.000-08:00

Employment

Gotta get my lazy ass to work tmr at 6am!!!
Sounds like a shitty thing but neh mind i got $$$ soon.

Dj kz killed it ytd night.
Supa fly man~

The singapore world damn small. So shocking that I was screaming wtf in the cab and the taxi uncle like omg relax girl. HAHAHA. Sieh cock.

Ah zhu we gotta go again u small thing! (:

Anyway we had this cousin gathering last Sats to meet Swat jie before she went back to Aussie.

Shanghai Dolly ^^

Kena slam with drinks for being latest!
Mel & Jo jie (:

Idk what big char n I was doing n Jas lika happy! HAHA SO CUTE!!!

Look at the irritating boy 可恶的样子

LMAO TOLD YA

And some other epic faces of them~

Melvin见鬼~！

So pai.. Tsk LIKE A PAI ONLY HAHA

Dancing with Jas. ♥

My darling dancing queen!

Super rock grandma!!!

妹妹 ^^

Darl me & Joanne Jie :D

It was a great night!

I love u girls ♥

And randomly, this just remind me that I AM NO LONGER A STUDENT \m/

Ogay goodluck to me tmr.
BYE BYE!

2011-02-23T00:40:00.000-08:00

[w the missing pieces]
Happy Birthday Val Baby

Back in Year 2010 on December 21, 庆祝 18th!

流口水...

Ooo yea 这最棒！

Modelling 了咯 hypemart 都还没 launch. 嘻嘻！

The egg prawns is awesome!!! (请想象我可爱的 rock face)

Buddy kioing all the zhap. 好节省！HEHE :X

生日女郎~~

Oh 我的咪咪眼！

Ah Lok ^^

天啊看看他那贪吃的样子哈哈哈

来块鸡肉吧 yoyo 我是 Justin Bieber \m/

Cuties chubby cheeks :D

Baby (:

吃蛋糕了！

我的美妹！

Yankee Boy and the sweet Birthday Girl (:
And the birthday cake is so delicious craving already!

老弟们

Charlie 的天使~~

Happy like a bird lor! Hahaha

Cut your lovely strawberry shortcake baby!~

可爱家人 ^^

帅哥美女！！！

After dinner we walk along the ECP.
And we spotted on Ah Hiao... TSK WONDER WHICH TURTLE IS IT LOR

草莓♥

Sweeties!

Princess & Baby (:

笑佛叻

Yea touch the Blonde Bastard's tum and everyone huat ah! HAHA

Boys gone mad.
They think they're in a old school movie~

All controlling their bursting laughter. LOL.

Ah peh ah toot jidai ko jidai!

Don't ask me. I also dunno what's he doing..
And got one freakin big orb over there!! Ewww~

Nerd boy face 哇靠 ><

TE LOOK LIKE ANG WEIBIN 哈哈！

May all ur wishes come true!
Grow up to be a more independant and strong girl. It's fate for us to be so close Val Heng. I love u (:

Sorry Te next up is our abandon post at Brunei Host.
The santanic place where I kena slam dunk by demons twice and become mudpie.

2011-02-23T00:26:00.000-08:00

シャルロット
sharurotto

2011-02-22T06:54:00.000-08:00

寄人篱下吗 no money no talk。。？

I feel like I'm living within some society culture in other people's thinking. I'm in this dilemma, should I follow what I want to do or what the society deems as correct right good?

I mean wtf is good? How is everything we do defined? In sociology everything we do is according to a set of instilled values from conditioned learning ever since we were born we are attuned to react and live in a way which is socially "right".

To be exact we all are living under some other bastard's terms values and rules. And fuck that. People expect you to be this and be that, you're supposed to do this and do that. Like, shit man stop making rules and trying to get me follow it.

We are poor people and being poor we work harder to climb the social ladder and get somewhere where we're "supposed" to be. We go to school. We must also work harder in school. And why do we need to go to school? Bcos we need those certs. We need to get a job and we need to get a good job and earn tonnes of money. So that we can be filial to my parents. The end.

SO EXCUSE ME SOMEONE OUT THERE CAN I KNW, WHAT ARE WE LIVING FOR?

We all are rebellious when we're young. People say we don't know how to think. Have you ever thought maybe its not we don't know how to think. ITS WE WERE THINKING HOW TO LIVE A LIFE THAT BELONGED TO US.

Then as we grow up, we just give in to this social pressure.
Blinded by it thinking its normal. Who told you what's normal who defines normal? Just bcos majority says so doesn't mean its right what.

Do we live to pay our debts?
So were we born as a mistake?
People say children are an investment.
So we are suppose to earn profits for our investors.

I thought children were born out of love. ?
I thought parents give their children a home and give their children education bcos they love their children?
I thought filial piety is done out of own will not done out of constant psycho?

From beginning to the end its only about one thing.
It is called money.

Everything is a lie, everything is a show a mock up.
Only money is real. Only money matters.

I don't believe in anything called filial piety, I only believe in something call owe money pay money. Cos each day u eat other people rice or sleep under other ppl roof u jolly well do other people's bidding. Money can be used to 压 people. That's the power of money.

You got to learn to stand up for yourself cos no one is going to be nice enough to lend out a helping hand. U got money ppl crawl to u like a dog, u no money u fuck off.

Don't think family is anything, don't think people really love u. From what I think, they love you cos your NPV is positive and u are profitable. They are just investors and you are the business. Break even for them and your job is done.

Maybe this is the life of all poor Singapore children.

FULL OF SHIT WORDS

2011-02-19T21:09:00.000-08:00

Unemployment...

IS DAMN FKING SHIOK!!!

There is no deadline, everything I do is can do until 爽 then stop, no limits. Bcos I tmr NO need to wake up early. And is for ALOT OF ALOT OF ALOT OF TMR~! Even my ljb loves it :D :D :D

真的是干爽 ^^

Can tiong everyday everynight!
I think aft finishing poly my face condition become worse lah everyday sleep later than FYP timing. LOL.

I think I had use my last few days very well. (:
Thurs went to TPK as its the last day of cny and also went to 感谢天公，虎爷，神明，好兄弟 for 保佑 me 顺顺利利 plus 平安过 these 3 years.

Even though the hardwork is 靠 myself and thanks myself but the luck and no maximum sueyness must thanks them.

100% 密性

If u realise, I got color law to follow during exam.
Fooey cfm knw. This year 羊 heng 白. 红 is standard one.
Best to be worn for maths exams or if u dunno your lucky color.
IN THE 3 YEARS, I NEVER FAIL TO FOLLOW "LAW" DURING EXAM.

I even got lucky red watch from foo.
HAHA. Those who need to take exam can try!

Fri went to meet my princess and do facial :D
Then she bring me take circle line and we went to bugis to buy lots of accessories! Love it so shiok and nice.

I'm still wondering how my sad lil 鸡扒 paper bag can tear until I end up eating from the plastic bag. I'm damn craving for the rose + hazelnut ice cream!!! Flower Ang I wan go ICC~~

After shopping madly, I left bugis and met Hun and Ying at Rebel! Freaking fun night, Ying like a hot stuff and my job was to protect her. Hehe.

Club until leg no strength. And the goodbye MUACKS from Hun's bf to her on the cab was so freaking sweet! Hun I'm really v happy for u ^^

Resist the urge of eating mcd breakfirst even though reaching 4am liao cos I damn fat girl cannot get fatter alr. So went home coma till 2 plus and nua on the bed talking on phone to the girls until 5 plus went to meet Badboy to go town!

Hungry like mad, spam pepperoni pizza and Badboy taboleh tahan the spicy mee. LOL. Shop shop around, I'm still thinking of the cute Jerry mouse!! I love the chubby cheeks just like me. HAHA.

Wanted to eat ice cream but our fate is so damn sad. The ice cream shop at FEP close alr lor cb. Then the Gelar dunno what no more flavor I want );

End up go to Ion and eat Awfully Chocolate.
We damn suateng nvr eat before and suateng boy still go and order 2 scoop!!!

Eat liao jitao nose bleed. And we 2 like encouraging each other to eat more. Damn epic ice cream search fail.
Bcos 勉强是没有幸福的~

Went back to PARIS village to meet my homies!
A lovely gathering after donkey years.
Lavender meatballs + shiok chilli. ^^

Then we went to some abandon place followed by neo tiew.
Shall blog this in another entry.

That's a nice Sat night spent laughing and exploring. (:
Best thing is to be spent with all ym favorite people. Let's bring it back!

Sunday is a normal day to me.
Now I love everyday not just Friday. HAHA.
Ogay so sleepy I wna sleep. Gave a very detailed post abt my life aft so long. Cos now got alot of time to talk cock. :D

GOODBYE~

2011-02-16T22:20:00.000-08:00

Power to decipher dreams

I had the most beautiful dream.
Magical glittery and unreal yet so real.

First I dreamt of 2 huge interlocking rainbows at my house main road. The colors are very solid not like the normal fading rainbows in real life. The colors in that 2 rainbows are like candy and it is so damn big. In my dream I was finding a phone to take picca of it. I could see the rainbow's end omg best dream of 2011.

Then second dream, I dreamt of me opening my gate and looking out. The night sky was amazing. Felt like I was looking into the universe, the blue is so nice deep blue like anime. And the best part is there was a cute little cloud chasing a tiny star!!! The cloud and star is so white and bright. Running here and there so fast! Walaneh felt like watching movie.

And the last dream, I dream of being in some masquerade party. Wearing English gowns with my sister and we were exploring a haunted mansion. Super big chio 3 level. The lighting are like those Victorian style. All I remember is we keep climbing the carpeted stairs and there was alot of glitter and sparkle.

SUPER MAGICAL DREAM.
Only lack of unicorn and prince charming.

How I wish I knew the meaning to these dreams!
Its better than reality a gift from the sleep fairy.

2011 U ARE AMAZING.
Even if this dream is the last living dream I can make I would die w/o regrets in 2012.

What's best is I made this dream on the last final day of school!
Perfect goodbye present.

2011-02-15T21:06:00.000-08:00

Jackie Chan say, Exactly, how can you fill your cup if already full? How can you learn Kung Fu, if you already know so much. No Shadow Kick, Buddha Palm! Empty your cup.

And Jackie Chan also say, Don't think just do!

Steve Jobs say, Your time is limited so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma; living with other people's thinking. Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.

And Steve Jobs also say, Life hits you in the head with a brick but don't lose faith.

2011-02-14T07:14:00.000-08:00

简单爱
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开~ ♥

I supposed to be studying la tmd
Mind is in the pre holiday state liao sigh 完蛋 lor

How to survive the next 3 days
Its gna be the slowest 3 days of my life

So many activities lined up from thurs onwards
Meeting all my girls and friends and couzins omg excited
Going to get myself a freakin life no more books no more notes fuck all this studying nonsense i throw of all u out of my window

给我滚远一点，这一大堆大便！！！

Valensai lah valentine.
Valentine with DC and bloody Apple Ipad.
And this stupid girl, like wna hao lian what sai on the bus.
Ti ti push her dua lin gong flower to me. CCB U N UR UGLY SUNFLOWER.

厉害的话买一粒太阳才来跟我号连啦。
我 pui pui pui 你的老爷花 (:

And why I liddat say u all think I cfm jealous bitch/old widow eating sour grapes at home right. No u are wrong my friend, my motive of telling this story is to 号连 my flower. HAHAHA.

花，好漂亮!!!
The only person who will give my flowers toe tweet^^

Ho la i btr go study.
GOODBYE FRIENDS~

2011-02-13T22:41:00.000-08:00

DC I KILL U TDY.
NO MORE SHIT FROM COKE BITCH.

I NOT SCARED OF SUPPLY CHAIN N ALL UR PARTNERS.
JUST BRING IT ON.

2011-02-13T08:26:00.001-08:00

DON'T JUDGE.

2011-02-13T04:24:00.000-08:00

Go ahead, tell the world

I just want to say, I will not and cannot force myself to do what my heart does not consent. I will give u the truest of me so if you won't take it then leave it. Yes I am the bad guy, I knew it would come to this. I felt like saying sorry but now I don't think I should.

Anyway,
Happy Valentines.

2011-02-10T04:27:00.000-08:00

ZERO

Sigh I think I need to go for chubby cheeks removal surgery

I am a stupid girl and I look like I have cataracts

♥♥♥
Like a princess

Lets burn everything to the ground so the wind can blow those painful ashes away

2011-02-07T04:51:00.000-08:00

Not myself

Friends came over today.
I don't think I was a good host.
They've waited n waited n still I'm saying I'm busy.

Ha its so fuck up right.
All I can say is, I'm truely sorry.
It's just beyond me. I miss u all so much. I miss all the fun times we've had tgt.

And I just want to say, don't give up on me yet.
I'm just inches away. I'll make it up to u all. Lead the group planning crazy stuff. Go out have fun and laugh our hearts out.

I love u all so much, u guys are so important to me.

2011-02-06T06:42:00.000-08:00

THINGS TO DO

Reform my life

do something to my hair
dye it red ash brown gold
cut the shit out of this long mess
check my degrees
get some freakin contacts
go facial w princess
use all the masks ive got
good real deep sleep for 3 days on ends
club so damn hard w tok
get a job
get another job
blog the unblogged
art my body w sissy
go shopping w hengsie
go chilling w siew
go jb
lepak one corner thinking of nothing x 100
check out uni courses
enroll myself in one
consider getting a driving license ?
plan my 20th birthday

Kidding for the last one just wanted to make the list end at 21.
Know what we're all going to die in 2012 so lets make the best out of 2011.

Next Wednesday TPRMT&ALLTHATSFUCKED will kiss my sweet ass goodbye. Never will u see me there ever again unless got $ to take.

I'm going to have a proper life, a normal life, a happier life.
Charlie Blyton is making a comeback in 10 days, n U, wait for the debut.

2011-02-04T18:58:00.000-08:00

GO TO HELL

I fucking hate my home
Swear Im going to leave this place asap

2011-02-01T19:39:00.000-08:00

过新年了

希望今年顺顺利利平平安安
要拿好成绩让我进大学

最重要大家要开心健康

2011请让我心想事成
过个大好年

SISTER BROTHER 大家 HUAT AH!

16 FEB一切结束
我的新生活在等我
好玩的日子就快到了

加油不要放弃！

2011-01-30T21:13:00.000-08:00

IDK HOW TO TELL U HOW FUCKED MY LIFE HAS BEEN THROUGHOUT THIS 6 WEEKS. ITS HAS SIMPLY BEEN FUCKED AND FUCKED HARDER.

LOTS OF SHIT JUST KEEPS COMING. AND WHEN YOUR FACE IS STILL HALF FILL WITH DUNG MORE CRAP COMES N PILE ON U

THAT SUCKY HELL OF AN FYP
SCREW U FYP SCREW RMT SCREW FUCKTARD FREELOADERS

RMT IS SRSLY A COURSE WHICH CAN DRIVE ANYONE MAD
TRY SLEEPING FOR >5 HRS A DAY FOR 1 MTH

HAVE BEEN THRU SUDDEN FEVERS N HAVE SRSLY VOMITTED DAMN COUNTLESS TIMES DUE TO TOO MUCH FUCKING STRESS N NOT ENUF SLEEP

ITS LIKE A GIFT FROM GOD THAT AT THE FINAL LAP U HAVE TO STAY AWAKE FOR 30 FUCKING HOURS TO EDIT THE 60 PAGE OF HELL

AND TO TOP IT OFF U HAVE A GREAT GROUP MEMBER WHO DECIDES TO FUCK UR SCHEDULE UP BY CANON BOMBING GIVING US FALSE HOPES AND TONS OF EXCUSES

WHATS WITH THE IPHONE COKE DOES IT AND SO DO U LIKE HELLO WAKE UP UR IDEA UR PROJECT MATES ARE SUFFERING N U CAN PLAY SO HAPPILY BLIND TO SEE MEH

THANKS ALOT I KOWTOW TO U

THEN WHEN U FINALLY MANAGED TO PULL THRU WHAT U THOUGHT WAS THE WORST AND COMPLETE THE PROJECT WITH A HANDICAP TEAM THE LIBRARY PRINTER RUNS OUT OF INK

SO ZHUN SO HOSEH WHAT MORE?

LET ME TELL U THERE'S ALWAYS MORE

U GO TO DESIGN SCH IN TP N I TELL U ITS THE FUCKIEST PLACE TO PRINT COS THEY HAVE 2 FUCK UP AUNTIES WHO I GUARANTEE U WILL HAVE DIFFICULTIES NOT TRYING TO MURDER

THEY KAOPEI U AND PRINT WRONGLY FOR U AND CHARGE U $42 FUCKING DOLLARS

AND WHAT ELSE IM SO DULAN I NEED TO RANT LIKE HELL

YA THE LIFT SCREWS UP AS USUAL GONE WHEN WE NEED IT MOST

FUCK ALL THIS SHIT I HATE SCHOOL I HATE FUCK UP PROJECT MATES I HATE THAT PRINTING AUNTY I HATE I PHONES N

YEA

I CAN FINALLY SLEEP

GOODBYE.

2011-01-29T04:48:00.000-08:00

CHEAP BYE CHAO CHEAP BYE!!!
SATURDAY LIAO

STRAT IS COMPLETED!!!
FINALLY!!!

Managed to make it through the sudden fever ytd n the continuous vomiting. I swear its damn hell. Struggling to chiong while got the death feeling. LOL. FML.

But my dearest groupmates really make it so much btr!
Jia you my dear girls, we go buffet eat madly aft this! <3

2011-01-25T02:40:00.001-08:00

Today is a fucky day.
I had to begin the day with the fuckiest pms bad mood.

Then some ppl come talk shit to me.
Mind fuck me and pour 1 swimming pool of ice kosong on me.

As if I'm not stress enough or I look like some insensitive fucktard.

Thanks for the scarscam, thanks for the prick, thanks for everything. I FUCKING GET IT U BITCH.

Life is as fucked as it is.
So dont come and tell me nonsense like your project is not a D or a C. It's like why don't you go fly kite.

And can I stab u and tell u sorry for stabbing you bcos come to think about it actually you don't deserve to be stabbed. ?

What fucking theory is in these people's brains.
I WONDER HOW MUCH MORE SHIT I HAVE TO TAKE TMR.

I am so tempted to just breakdown in front of all of u kisiao n throw a chair table punch at ur face.

Don't want this and that and quote unreal stuff like what there is this group who what what what. We have like 5 days more and u shld have better cow sense than to screw with us like that.

Idk what else to rant.
My heart is so heavy now.
Its going to reach the end alr.

I hate u.
I hate school.

FML

2011-01-22T21:26:00.001-08:00

INDEPENDANCE DAY

2011-01-22T01:32:00.000-08:00

FUCKYEAH 9 MORE DAYS

Whooohoooooooo Im damn happy cos I feel the CNY mood alr!!!!! Fav time of the year!!!!! :D :D :D

I SRSLY NEED SOME HARDCORE ANGPOW SPAM

I need money and a damn job!!!
I wna buy new camera and 2011 clothes!
I swear I'm gna work my ass off aft poly ends!

Suddenly realise I've got my curls for 1 year already!
AND ITS STILL CURLY!!! HAHAHA.
Ash is the next color. So cool!!!

Hope everything goes smoothly for FYP and I can geddout of poly unscathed!
I just can't wait!!!

Limbei tdy sieh high ah!
Hehe!! Ciaos!

2011-01-19T02:05:00.000-08:00

Life is damn fucked right now
We are at number 12 till the end
Everyone is floating zombies in sch

Once I jump over strat I must still jump over financial
THEN JUMP OVER EDITING WTF LA HELL HAS NEVER BEEN SO JUMPY .|.

This is really hell out of the hell shit out of the shit fml out of the fml

All my RMT friends we must survive we can do it

SOON WE WILL ALL BE OUT OF THIS MAD HOUSE
AM IM NEVER GOING BACK TO TP AGAIN

2011-01-15T01:21:00.000-08:00

Yankie Lok's 22nd Blast

Went back to my virgin club ytd.
Fucking awesome night with all the favorite people ♥

Minisizes my dear val baby ^^

This sexbomb's on fire!
Knn enjoy like hell right my siao eh :D

Teba marc & baby (:

Drunkards again!

Buddy popped in!!

Just the three of us (:
Both of u really makes my day/night.
The best sisters which I can ever have!

Brother for life lor!
Haha buddy damn steady 3 second :D

Yankee & AKS

His wife.
Sorry baby I already seh seh when taking this picca! HAHA.

His open scandal. Whooohooo~~~

Happy 22nd birthday to u Jason Boy. (:
Feel like I known u for donkey years and u own such a dear place in my heart which Im sure u know that. I know u will be very successful in the future. Jia you, be happy and show me ur bunny teeth. PENG YOU 184!

It was a damn powderful night.
And the alcohol made me think btr. Love it!
SIXTEEN MORE FUCKING DAYS WHOOOOOHOOOOOOO~~~

2011-01-12T01:25:00.000-08:00

Thanks for all those ppl counting down to feb with me!! ^^
All the birthdays which I have to miss, I'm really sorry.

I promise to hardcore party with u all in 2 weeks time♥

MAJOR UPDATES IN 19 DAYS.
Put ur fucking hands up!

2011-01-11T03:00:00.000-08:00

I will not give up.

I must be mad to even think of it!!!
Mad char, wake up wakeeeeeee up!!!
Left only less than one month, BO HUA TO GIVE UP!

"Just do whatever u can, do ur best, the rest let God decide"

I will stop thinking of jumping from the sch stairway, stop thinking of stabbing each other, stop thinking of going to general office!

My dear grp mates, hang on!
We will be fine!!!

加油 MY 艺包。ONE TOTE MEMBERS!
♥♥♥

2011-01-09T03:58:00.000-08:00

家不像家
对你我只有四个字：

少管闲事
还有最好什么都不要管
不要怕读完书我肯定马上去做工

越来越讨厌一切
真的烦死人了

我二十岁了不是十二岁
做事后果我会承担

so just leave me alone

2011-01-06T02:07:00.000-08:00

KICK THOSE KAYPOS OUT OF MY LIFE PLS

Cmon stop making me consider so much and pressurizing me with all the u gotta do this do that go uni crap la.

Why the fuck must I think so much?!
As long as I am happy now that's enough.
I never said I think I'm very clever to do this and that so just take it that I am fucking stupid and brainless BUT I AM HAPPY LIKE THAT OKAY. Isn't that the most important?

Why want me to hold this fuckup image which is not me? If I'm just that rotten and lousy then so be it bcos THAT'S ME mum, I hate to try so hard and cover up my flaws just bcos u dont want to see it. I can tell u, I can't do it.

Its like a piece of shit will forever be a piece of shit no matter how much gold powder u pour on it IT WILL STILL BE JUST A FUCKING PIECE SHIT. (:

U forget that I should have the right to be happy.
And I hate to say this again and again, but yea we're both selfish.

Talking to me is redundant.
I won't jeopardize my studies. I will fucking go into the uni and give u what u want. So don't worry and stop nagging.

2011-01-05T06:48:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA.

Omg some ppl damn joke.
Pot calling kettle black. LOL.
Like a big fat clown with a big fat mouth.
Just showed the world how bloody sad and jealous you are.

Myob lah (:

2011-01-04T06:28:00.000-08:00

CANT BE TAMED

For those who don't know me, I can get a bit crazy
Have to get my way, 24 hours a day
'Cause I'm hot like that
Every guy everywhere just gives me mad attention
Like I'm under inspection, I always get the 10s
'Cause I'm built like that

I go through guys like money flyin' out their hands
They try to change me but they realize they can't
And every tomorrow is a day I never planned
If you're gonna be my man, understand

I can't be tamed, I can't be saved
I can't be blamed, I can't, can't
I can't be tamed, I can't be changed
I can't be saved, I can't be (can't be)
I can't be tamed

If I see my reflections bout my intentions
I'll tell ya I'm not here to sell ya
Or tell ya to get to hell
I'm like a puzzle but all of my pieces are jagged
If you can understand this, we can make some magic
I'm on like that

I wanna fly I wanna drive I wanna go
I wanna be a part of something I don't know
And if you try to hold me back I might explode
Baby by now you should know

I'm not a trick you play, I ride a different way
I'm not a mistake, I'm not a fake, It's set in my DNA
Don't change me

2011-01-04T03:51:00.000-08:00

OMFG STEAM TTM
LOST MY FUCKING THUMBDRIVE
FMFL MAN CCB WHAT THE FK IS WRONG WITH 2011?!!!!!

NEVER ENDING DRAMA

2010-12-31T20:19:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year 2011

2010 has been an awesome year, gna miss you 2010

Just one more month or so and I can have a real long break. My wish for 2011 would be that I won't screw up this last part of 2010 and first part of 2011. All I want is to get over and done with poly nicely.

Time be on my side
Body keep going
Brain stay alive

I don't know what's in for 2011
I don't know how my life will change
I'm just hoping that 2011 will be just as good as 2010 (:

Let's all have a good one.
Keep the happiness level, one more year to live, a lot more stories to tell.

2010-12-18T23:40:00.001-08:00

FUCK SCHOOL

Trying to kill me with all the shitload of work knn.
Someone pls burn TP MOE GOV of SG down.

Ccb internship report cork up.
Fyp buzzing at my doorstep.

I can't believe I'm saying this but the feeling in my heart is I WNA QUIT SCHOOL. Hate to say this but yes its so the very the literally FUCK MY LIFE.

How to live through these 6 more weeks of hell stress emo.
Everyone is turning suicidal

Fuck singapore education system
U ARE KILLING US KIDS.
Give us back our life!

2010-12-14T03:39:00.000-08:00

YEA I AM ALWAYS THE BADASS BITCH.

And always will be,
so fuck u all. (:

2010-12-12T02:54:00.000-08:00

分开不是你的损失因为你可以活的更好

我知道有很多人都在等这一天的到来，恭喜你们终于给你们等到了。

我承认我一点都不好
我现在真的没有时间
我很自私只想到自己

分开不是因为不爱所以我永远都不会觉得可惜
爱还在什么都不怕，这次到我等你了，要多久都可以

谢谢你给过的一切，还有对不起

p.s 朋友们请不要再问

2010-12-11T05:22:00.000-08:00

SOFTLAUNCH

You won't believe what I did tdy.
Spent half my saturday walking the whole of Orchard road.
FEP all the way to ION to Cinne to PS and BACK. Omfg how many million clicks is that....

Dressing up as a prisoner in chains lead by a werewolf.
Damn hot super hot can die of dehydration in the full jumper.

Our faces is going to appear in many ppls camera cos everyone was snapping us esp those tourists... HEHE. Spot us!!!

I intended to pretend to faint (LOL) and hopefully skip the rest of the walk back cos I was dying of tiredness,thirst, hunger, heat, whatever. But the attention is simply amazing!!

Everyone was like wtf-ing, omg-ing, lol-ing and those being scared by the werewolf was screaming like no tmr. Really own!!! At least it wasn't as boring as I thought it was. (:

Don't have any piccas as I was busy saving my energy to stay alive. HAHA. This is Atiqah!

She's from SSS too la no wonder so familiar ^^

Anyway its all the preparation for our event:

Singapore Ultimate Horror House.
A walk with DEMONS in EX-CID PRISON CELLS

Btw the place itself is really very scary.
And I think it is really haunted to a certain extent.

Friends who are asking me about the prices can go view at this website (:
http://the13cells.com/

Argh ok v tired coughing like have cancer and just sup lots of panadol. TMR STILL MUST WORK. GOODLUCKS TO ME. Bye!